Falling in love with chess

That's exactly what i was waiting for. This stupid little thing called love, it sometimes comes all of the sudden after a while. Understanding some of the basic concepts and being able to follow content was really hard for me at first, but now it is coming. Also entertainment is important for me, because now i can watch videos which are actually entertaining chess content and not so much learning related. Before i just couldn't really follow, but as soon as i can relax through undestanding it is becoming very cool.

I knew it's hard to learn chess and it is in fact much harder than i thought. Like other things i mastered in life, kind of knew it would be very confusing at first, but more or less sticked to the plan. Watched videos, grinded puzzles, read books, played computers...I think middle and endgame is okish now, opening is still kind of a mystery. But if i hit the online play i will probably play in a player pool, where i don't have to know like every opening by heart, with mainlines and variations and stuff. Not blundering, creating kind of reasonable position and then slide into the middle game, that is probably the way. When i have some games to analyze i can go deeper into my opening studies. Not blundering is probably the biggest factor, since i still do that quite much, but it's in progress.
I actually found a way to study openings and i still have to figure out if it is worth the effort. I know many people say understanding is more important than memorizing, at least at lower levels. To be honest i can memorize well in general, so i try to find a way where i work on both, understanding and apply opening concepts AND learning lines by heart through the process. We will see if that works ;) Thinking also about ordering a certain chess book and work with that. I wonder if this is even necessary with all this great online content and tools, but tbh i enjoy having a book in my hand and working with the chess board instead of staring at the screen. The only thing which is not so easy for me is going back the moves with the chess board, online it is just clicking. Well, probably also a question of training :)
At the end of the day i wanted to feel this love to finally start online playing. Because i want games to be really fun. I won't say this is the only way to approach and probably i wasted some time avoiding online play, but there is a chance that i would've quit chess very fast after losung a few games. I slowly feel ready and confident now. Of course i am not going to rapid territory yet. Classic is the way, and probably unrated the very first few games.
What's also crucial is that the spring starts here right now and having the possibility to walk outside to get the head clear.